Sunday, October 30, 2011

Seriously you pervert

So this is aligned improperly compared to the rest of the blog, I can't help that for some reason.  SO these are the referring words from search engines to get here...
I don't know how I feel about this...
The Dreamers post gets a ton of hits and now I know why...
what the hell is wrong with people?
Search Keywords
sister naked
-6
affair brother sister-
2
inappropriate sister
-2
natural synthetic dreads-
2
ribbon shelf-
2
twin brother and sister-
2
" jack off in front of your"
-1
curly dreadlocks-
1
sister naked pics-
1


I'm not dead

My phone is, and my laptop...
apparently there was some kind of electronic device suicide I wasn't aware of...
I don't really know what to say...
My life has just reached new levels of pain in the ass
It doesn't look like we can get divorced anytime soon and no I'm not happy about it. I want to be with him  not just stuck married to him while he hates me  because he can't afford to divorce me. I don't want that, I dont' want him to like feel trapped in our marriage (that's kind of the way I feel but I just want to work it out) and there's just like nothing we can do at this point.
He's developed a new habit of completely and totally ignoring me, no, this isn't like new new it's just kind of gotten excessive and annoying because I actually need to talk to him not just bug him.
Let's see what else...
My English professor told me I need to use less humor in my writing
I spent the day schlepping around to Target's buying all the leftover Missoni scraps they had
I'm involved in some really intense projects at the moment
I don't have time to really do anything at all actually
I think I'm going to this vintage store in the Springs on Wed since Abbey has a doctors apt
(wow are you still reading cause this has reached new levels of boring)
Tomorrow is Halloween so I think I might do this to take Abbey trick-or-treating and/or hand out candy
or I'll do nothing at all
boy oh boy
I need to get this blog shit together or there won't even be a point.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

This is crap

My computer is fianlly working, I have posts ready to be made and scheduled to post and what happens?
Blogger won"t upload my photos and then again my phone stops working.
fml.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

@#$%^&*?!!!!!

I just...I just....
suck at life right now ok? Don't be mad at me, dear God do not be mean to me, I really can't handle it right now ok I'm sorry.
I keep promising things and then not delivering, things to mail, things to make, things to do, things to post, things to read, things to buy...it's just all so much right now.
I'm so over whelmed and so sad and depressed all the time (well most of the time I am easily distracted from my turmoil) and I've just go so much going on...
I think I have a C in humanities, hopefully that will be brought up with this project I have to turn in tomorrow but I'm actually really unhappy about it and I thought I was doing my homework correctly and well.
I hate to sound like melodramatic and whiny and annoying and lame and I know that is how I'm coming off but I just feel like nothing is fucking going right  for me these days. The stress is causing my face to break out...
And I have tons of help! And I don't really work! How do other people in this situation do it? How did my mom do it? I don't know I DON'T KNOW.
I just want my life back...why is that too much to ask for, you'd think like I don't know that sound stupid I'm not going to write that...

Oh and to top it all off my phone is broken again, stupidass Blackberry 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

It was just weird

Normally, I wouldn't do this, I don't want to just be mean for the sake of being mean but what the hell is going on in this picture?
Seriously. it's the most entertaining things I've seen all day.

It was a totally weird day, did not go how I thought it would AT ALL...
We, Dustin and I, had our Initial Status Meeting blah blah blah today for this stupid divorce. We basically found out that we were completely unprepared and that we really need to consult a lawyer because apparently the court is really picky about this shit, who knew...
That's not the weird part, the weird part is Dustin getting up in the middle of it, saying "hey come outside with me for a minute" and then just like "let's get out of here". Yea, we just left, he said he had to go to the doctors and he'd been told it wasn't going to take as long as it was. So I was just confused and like and am still like what the fuck dude?
He wants to divorce me and his lack of planning skills to do so are driving me fucking crazy.
He's leaving again in ten days for a month so I don't know what the plan is, I asked him, not like trying to fight but to try to figure out and he was like "Just gimme some time to think alright"
WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?
I know what I want it to mean, in a perfect fantasy Megan world it means he's had an epiphany and this won't happen, well that would be amazing. But it probably means he's like trying to finagle a way to do this as quickly and cheaply as possible...
I don't know
I don't know anything except everything in the universe is telling him not to do this, including his own schedule, and like now that there's is the slightest chance it might not happen as fast maybe he'll see...maybe I should try not being so crazy then.

Gah, I'm avoiding homework right now, I have two weeks to do most of it and I'm really sick of interpreting paintings (seriously it's like symbolism in literature, I didn't write it, I don't know, I don't fucking care)


Monday, October 17, 2011

The coolest shit I've ever seen

"One original piece of art will be created with love each and everyday for one year"
If you don't know what I'm talking about, go, go right now and check it out.



Is it ok to blatantly copy someone if you do it from the privacy of your own home, don't try to sell them, don't try to say you came up with it and also don't post pictures of the blatancy in your blog?
I think it is, even if I didn't how would you know if I'm doing it or not, I said I wouldn't tell you.
Ok I am.
I just think this is one of the most amazing creative things I've ever seen and am so inspired by it.






Thursday, October 13, 2011

EEW#6

I am sick, my child is sick, and while I know this is my sisters fault for bringing the plague into this house, I feel like blaming fall.
Fuck fall then, let's rebel with some pretty teal things.

This is a weird way to start, but I really like furniture, maybe it's because I don't have a house and I'm jealous.


I feel like everyone on the planet can find fabric like this but me.





Vintage luggage is a great love of mine, I'm planning a post on that to come later...



I've been trying to think of a good lace and an actual reason other than they look cool to get a tattoo of an anchor


woah
Shawl made by Lilithist

I wish I had the balls to pull this off

Well, Abbey Memphis clearly has to have these




Monday, October 10, 2011

Random bits

So while I am currently involved in some other pretty intense projects, here are just a few random like five minute things I've done lately...
Check out this DIY project I found over on CraftedLove

Yes, it's the same map as above. This took no effort at all, nor am I particularly proud of it I just looked around one day and was ok what can I make real quick...ta-da

WHOOPIE PIES!!!!!!!!!!
I love to bake...I've gone over this but I totally do.

So I've been going to a lot of local craft fairs lately and tomorrow or sometime soon  I'm going to do like a whole serious of the things I've been buying, the markets at which I bought them, the people that sold them to me, and where you can find them.

Yea I know, this post sucked ass...if you're one of the like 8 people I'm texting right now, you know what's wrong, you know why it sucks...
and I'm sorry
xo


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Did you know that I also...

embroider? I just got into it so I'm an armature and for the life of me cannot stitch a French knot, but yes, I dabble...
Tara McPherson patterns available at Sublime Stitching
They really do make the most awesome patterns, I also have these and I got these today.
Let me explain, when I first got all these patterns it was the night of the last time Dustin and I went out before he had to go to Wyoming (it was also our three year anniversary) and so I got them so I would have something to do while he was away. Well he left and I got a few done and got really involved in some other projects and this is the only one I got to photograph. And then he came back, and left me, and so they're still all there at my house, which he kicked us out of.
So...I'm working on that...awkward...
I'm really excited about the woodland creatures one, I'm going to start on it tomorrow...oh geez tomorrow
That will include, a thrift trip, a Target trip, and a crafty trip where I need to purchase velvet, wool, hoops, felt, vinyl letters, spray paint in two colors and some plain cotton or something. I was thinking of doing the deer all white on a gray background.
I ALSO within the next week need to mail a WestWord to my friend Ryan so he can plan a trip around show dates. Make and mail to Rachel this scarf (and one for myself), an adorable special birthday card for her daughter who's about to turn one and some really awesome shirts I know she's going to love. And AND I really need to make and mail Jordann something amazing as a thank you for all she's sent us, plus all the fabric for what she's making me next...don't worry I'm commissioning this one...
And like a million other things, all varying in levels of actual importance...
blah blah blah
I don't like complain this much in real life I swear, or maybe I do, I can't tell

EEW#5

ugh, I just finished all my homework for the week and just have a few more notes to take down. I had to do this all tonight because I found out I have a meeting with Denver Handmade Alliance tomorrow night. Oh did I not tell you I'm a full fledge member now? So much has happened since I've been able to post regularly oh well.
I'm exahusted, but I figured I would do this weeks EEW, since they're so few and far apart, I'll work on that, I promise.


GRANNY SQUARES
(or the other major reason I need to learn to crochet)

I love everything about this picture.

I don't know if you know this yet, but I love love LOVE bunting...

speechless....

I so wish Abbey had this!

LOVE
Sweater made by Iryna 

Oh man, does this make me happy

Really, I just want to make sound effects at the sight of this

I love me a slouchy hat.
Hat made by BVC

LOVE


I actually just wrote about this bag for my Humanities class
Bag made by NzL Bags




Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Holy Crap

Am I busy.
With school (which I just started), with divorce (hello daily emotional roller coasters), with being a single parent (thanks Dustin, really), with the projects I've got going on (posts to come) and like trying to be social when Abbey is in the Springs, I just don't have time for anything anymore.
Seriously, I'm not really doing anything these days but reading text books and crying.
I do have some projects to share and some things to say and since I've got the first half of my homework done I might work on some posts later and just schedule them to appear so I seem less like a loser.
I'm just not having a good life right now, well actually my life has gotten pretty damn good and productive all be it slightly over whelming except for oh yea, my husband is divorcing me for no reason and treats me like garbage.
It's pretty fun to feel worthless everyday you know, good shit.
Now, I've got to go do my art homework and probably some more reading, but I am getting it done and well before it's due, so at least I've got that going for me right?
I will try, I will, I'm planning on having everything done tomorrow night so worst case scenario I spend Friday working on posts, but really I haven't even been reading blogs lately, too damn busy.