it doesn't matter

i have nothing to write about. i'm not even capitalizing. sad about things that don't matter. sad about things that won't get better or change. that's the worst part. i can't change them, i tired, jesus, did i try to change them. i feel like such a loser. i just get stuck on a thought and i can't get rid of it. i'm still not sure what happened. i just. it's like. the only thing you want in the world, what you live for, what you would die for, and you'll never have it. not possibly someday. not ever. i'm being dramatic i suppose. just ignore me. whatever. 

I don't know what to title this as other than yesterday we both had the day off and that never happens.

 I would make the worst pioneer. Seriously, I would just bitch and whine about everything. Every time I'm anywhere near the mountains I'm so thankful I didn't have to be one. 

 This dress makes me feel like a peasant. That being said, I think I'm really into overalls for summer. 

 Rachel has died.

 This is kind of a stupid looking picture of me but whatevs. 

A Blue Snow Globe of Emotion

Actually it was an interactive exhibit called "Walking in Blue Venus Cave" by Ernesto Neto   and it's kind of the coolest thing I've ever seen. Since discovering how amazing and totally worth it museum memberships are I've joined 2 and I go seriously all the time. (I've been to the planetarium 3 times in roughly a week to see the same feature twice) Anyways, I've been waiting for this exhibit at the art museum to open since they've been installing it. Wondering and hoping of what it could be, going every few weeks to see the progress and the areas that had already been opened.  It was worth the wait, lemme tell you.. DAM has really mastered the interactive areas with this newest museum wide installation SPUN: Adventures in Textiles, but I'm kind of partial towards textiles. 

So what is it?
Remember those infomercials for the Sobakawa Cloud pillow? It was that micro synthetic air puffed Styrofoam...thing...am I making this sound appealing? This is an entire room of that pillow, and blue lighting. It's over whelming. It's engrossing. It's almost two much.

All we do is fun things.